The one year point

Man I'm writing a lot of Real Talks lately.

We're not there yet, but I wanted to touch briefly on the fact that I'm getting close to having done this blog project of mine for a year. It'll be about a month and a half until I hit 365 blog posts, but I don't officially consider having started until January 1, so in reality it's more like two months. But I said from the beginning that I wanted to try and hit a full year of having done this blog every single day, and while I technically haven't done that, as I've missed two or three days, I've done infinitely better than I ever thought I would.

I believe this will be post number three hundred twenty four. 324. I make this joke a lot, but that's about 314 more posts than I ever expected to make. And I know that's funny and a bit tongue in cheek, but it's also pretty true. I'm not very good at making habits or following patterns. For all the many things that I am, I am a procrastinator above all else. Even with this blog, I write and post nearly all of my stories and musings shortly (or more frequently, immediately) before going to bed. But these are things I've said before.

I just wanted to talk a bit before we get there about the end of this year in writing. My goal from the beginning was to hit a year. A year of writing every single day is a huge undertaking, and a massive accomplishment, especially for me. I've tried to push myself in new directions, and some of those directions worked surprisingly well, even when I didn't like writing them. I'd like to think that I've gotten better at writing during this year, but I've also realized just how much further I have to go, and the slow progress towards that goal is quite frustrating.

I never really got to a point where I really had actual readers on my blog, but I suppose that wasn't really the point, either. I would like to have them, and especially ones who will give me feedback, which I've talked about before. I don't expect to use this blog as a means of getting money. If I could introduce people to my writing and find what I do well and that people react well too I would be more than happy. But I have time for that.

Which is the main thing I want to say. Most of my friends, whether they read my blog or not, know that I am writing it. And as I was talking to one recently about it, I realized that he viewed it as coming to a close with the end of the year. That I had wanted a year of writing, and that that year was almost over.

But that doesn't mean I'm going to stop writing, and it especially doesn't mean I'm going to stop writing on this blog.

Having something to keep me accountable on writing has been good for me. It's put me in some tough spots, and I've had to slowly learn to manage my time better, but more than anything, it's done exactly what I wanted it to do - it's kept me writing. And if I just drop it, I don't know if that will continue.

So I don't plan to.

I don't want the blog to be a one and done kind of thing. I want to keep going. Hell, even if I publish books like I've always dreamed, I want to keep writing on this blog. Maybe someday I'll be a famous author, and this blog will be a chronicle of my journey to get there, and I'll keep writing in it so that every day fans can come and see something new, and even give me direct feedback.

Wouldn't that be the day.