Autobiographies

I'm usually not huge on autobiographies, though I have read a few that I have found to be very interesting. It's not that I don't enjoy learning things about people, especially ones who are prominent in society or who I find inspiring. It's just that I don't really need to know about the birthday party they had when they were five where the neighbor bullied them and that scarred them for life and lead them down the path that they ended up on.

Just in case it wasn't obvious, that was an exaggeration. I highly doubt there are any autobiographies out there that have something like that in them, nor would I ever expect one to. Though I honestly wouldn't be surprised. But my point is that "ever since I was a kid" is a phrase that I practically expect an autobiography to open up with. And honestly, how else would you open one a lot of the time? There's nothing wrong with that particular phrase, and it's probably a true statement. It just gets really old really quick.

Sometimes I think about what it would be like for me to write an autobiography. In a way, I suppose I already have written bits and pieces of one. Every non-fiction post on here is exactly that - a story from my real life. If you were unaware, that might change how you view them, or how you view me. But regardless, most of the time when I think about this subject, I come to the conclusion that I would not want to write one.

It's not that I'm ashamed of my life, or even that I think people wouldn't find it interesting. I mean, obviously I haven't lived a lot of it yet, and I'm not trying to say that my life is super interesting and it would make a great story if I did write it down. But I also know that in my time, I have done some really cool stuff, and a lot of the time, people love to hear about them.

But I don't.

I get tired of my life. I get tired of experiencing sometimes. Sometimes, I just want to hear about other people's experiences, let them have the limelight. It's a really backwards way of thinking, and I have no arguments about that. I've just spent so much time in my life doing, while the people around me have spent so much time not doing, and while they're jealous of me, I'm jealous of them.

I suppose it's a grass is always greener situation. If you've enjoyed any of my non-fiction stories, you should probably know that I've told most of them enough times that they don't hold much meaning to me anymore. There are exceptions of course, one in particular that I can think of, but generally speaking, they just feel dull to me.

And I wouldn't want to fill a book with dull life stories. That's not what I want to read. So why write it?