Biography

I'm not huge on telling stories about myself, which I've talked about before, even though I do it quite a bit. I know that I've had opportunities to do a lot of things throughout what little of my life I've had that some other people never will, but a lot of the time when I talk about those things, I don't like the way that people look at me. Like I'm something better than I am, or that my actions and experiences somehow make them lesser. People have gotten mad at me before for not taking the compliments that they try to give me, but the truth is that I've heard it before and I'm just tired of hearing it. I don't want them to treat me differently than they did before I told them a story about myself. I know that's pretty unreasonable of me to ask, but I don't look at myself differently after I do those things, so I don't want them to either.

And the truth is, between those incredible moments in my life there are a lot of darker, sadder moments that I prefer not to talk about. And for some people those problems I've faced may seem petty, and in the future they may seem petty to me as well, but they hit me hard and they impacted who I am far more than any of the big, exciting things did. I've told some of those stories on here, in fact. The crash is a big one in particular that hurt me really hard. I almost didn't keep on with this blog after that. And it's because of things like that, when people ask me why I don't like certain, darker themed things, I usually reply, "Because if I wanted to be depressed, I'd write an autobiography."

And yet, despite that, I've thought of creating an autobiography in a sense. Just not as a written collection of personal stories. Rather, I've considered creating a musical playlist of the songs that define moments in my life, or tell the stories of things that happened to me, set in the order of my life. And not just songs that I like, but the ones that fit best with the events and moments of my life.

The problem with doing something like that is that I don't entirely remember everything that's ever happened in my life. I'm infamous amongst my friends and family for my absolutely terrible memory. I also spent roughly half of my life not really listening to music, and even once I finally got into it, my exposure to music and music genres has been very limited, so I don't necessarily know the best songs to use. Not to mention that there are new songs coming out every day, and some of them may describe my life better than other ones that I know of at the moment that I might use.

Of course, what I should really do is just get started, and worry about making edits to it later on. This isn't necessarily something that I could or would publish or make public, after all, so it's not like there's any particular standard that I would have to keep it up to. I just think it would be an interesting way of doing things, and looking back on my life. Something that, as far as I know, no one else has really done. I think it'd be cool.